go to bed already.

there are some days that i question what the heck i'm doing with my life.

today was not one of those days.

thank god.

today was one of those i'm in the right place, at the right time, doing the right thing kind of day. 

i am happy in san luis obispo. 

i am happy that i am 19.

i am happy that i am studying journalism.

i realize that this optimism seems annoying and overenthusiastic about life, so i'm going to bring it down a notch.

both the office and grey's were old episodes tonight. oh, and it's 12:47 in the morning. i have work at 8. 

i guess it's a new day and i need to go to bed. what the heck am i doing with my life? 

Namaste.

cassie and i went to yoga fusion tonight.

it was fabulous.

new favorite pose: happy baby.

i really like yoga because it works you out really well without trying too hard. and at the end you get to take a mini-nap and they tell you thank you and that you should be proud of yourself for coming. =)

we're going again next monday.

beach bum.

avila beach is my new favorite.

team obama.

cute.

i'm excited.

=)

my friend, katerina.

i got home today around six and found a pretty note on my desk. i read it and i cried.

kat wrote me the nicest note about our friendship.

though i promised myself that i wouldn't think or talk about him (i can't right now), i think it's only relevant to bring aaron up in this instance.

my favorite thing about kat is that she knows how to give the good kind of hugs that brett gives. last quarter i was having a pity party in my room, all alone, feeling bad and sorry for myself about the whole aaron deal. kat comes in and just gives me this tight, tight hug and tells me that it's ok that i miss him. at that moment it was like something clicked and we took that next step from being friends to being close friends. i really needed somebody to tell me that it was ok that i was sad.

all of my friends have been so great about me dealing with aaron in my own way. everyone has been accepting and have been great listeners. especially my roommates. ashley, kat, and cassie have had more than enough of aaron-talk and i'm so thankful that they have listened. i'm done thinking and talking about him for now until i am over it.

katerina, i am glad that you are my roommate and friend. life would be much sadder (and a lot quieter... no squawking or meowing...) without you. =)

sunshine and summertime. in winter.

it's january.

it was 80 degrees outside.

we went to the beach.

i had ice cream.

i love living in san luis obispo.

heaven on earth.

in my english class, we read william blake's marriage of heaven and hell and it was freaking good. my favorite part was when he explains at the end how jesus broke all ten commandments but that it's ok that he did.

pretty freaking cool.

school aside, life is good. brett's last night was a fantastic welcome back to slo. i'm glad i have wonderful friends up here.

one of these days i'll get a picture of bishop's peak up on here and you'll see why i like slo so much.

totally a single lady.

ashley just came in and gave me the new b-town cd (for those of you who aren't in the IN crowd... b-town is beyonce). i am beyond excited.

2009, aside from a few faultering steps, has lead me in the right direction. odd years are definitely better than even years... lots of cute boys in my classes... lots of working hours (equaling lots of dollars)... lots of parties to go to... life is good.

here are the shoes i bought at target in the little girls section:

aaron mccoy is my hero because he is so damn good at writing. 

heads i win, tails you lose.

after a wonderful/shitty winter break, i'm glad to be back in san luis obispo. where i belong.

the first day of winter quarter went very well. i had class from 8 to 3 then work from 3 to 5. 

i'm signed up for a PR class and even though it sounds like a ton of fun i don't know if i want to put myself through that much frustration and freak-out mode. i'm seriously considering flipping a coin and just going with whatever chance tells me.

i rearranged my room a little. it's rather cute.

winter quarter, i need you to treat me well.

this is your roots, girl

new orleans is now possibly number one on my favorite places in the world list.

my trip to louisiana was better than i could ever have expected.

i got to stay in a hotel on burbon street in the french quarter and throw beads to cute strangers walking by. i got to drink with my grandma around. i got to dance with my cousins at a bar. i caught a fish (two, actually!) for the first time in my life. i got to see where my mom grew up. i got to relive what my mom and dad lived while they were in college. i got to hang out with my long lost cousin, gabrielle. i got to reconnect with my mom's side of the family and they welcomed me like i've been around everyday for the past 19 years. it was amazing.

best of all, i got to spend time with my maw maw. she is the single greatest person to live on this earth. i love her and i cherished every day i got to spend with her.

i am so glad that i took this trip that i've been meaning to take for the last 4 years. it was a selfish little trip for myself and it was one of the best, if not THE best trip i've taken so far in my life.

louisiana, i'll be back.